I’m a very private person. I also love being behind the scenes. I don’t seek fame nor fortune. I simply, AM.
Many wonder why I don’t video, go on live, there’s no pictures of me personally, other than my hand😉.
Well, I’ve had a broken-heart & wounded Soul, for a very long time. I felt better, and safer, keeping my identity to myself. I still do, lol! I can’t say it’s due to any one person in particular. It simply was the responses of negativity, hatred, lack of love, deceit, lies, mistreatment of humanity & from it, losses and chaos surrounding me, most of my life that had me imprisoned within self.
Many never have & never will overstand me…and that’s okay. I no longer give a crap, lol!😂 I’ve made my share of mistakes in life & wisdom arrived. I try not to judge, because you never know the path a person’s on. But, I genuinely LOVE humanity. I Love LIFE. I’m no longer ashamed to exist, due to the negativity from others.
Richie Innocent told me, that it’s too late for me to turn back, Antonia Valaire told me to write a book – my greedy self wrote two at the same time, lol!, Brother Ras Atiba told me to shine, & Brother Ras Manga told me to create my own way. Yet, I was afraid of my own voice. Because I was silenced, ignored, & mistreated for so long, that I no longer wanted to speak. Poetry was my voice…and still is.
I woke-up this weekend & something was different. I felt a SHIFT, deep within my Soul. Now, I’m still not into video chatting, & all that. But I’m ready to unveil myself. The funniest thing? I’ve never been this HAPPY in my life.
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My Goodness! I didn’t know so many people cared, lol! I’m a little overwhelmed by it, but thank you. I appreciate the love.
I really liked being “invisible.” It was needed. After becoming ill after surgery and returning from Finland, it depressed me. I think I gave up on humanity. I stopped writing, surgery caused damage to my throat, so I stopped singing, sketal issues from birth stopped me from dancing – which surgery made worse, my family was shattered and I no longer felt happy, and I had to cut my locs.
I wasn’t lost, nor on the wrong path per say. I believe everything happens in life for a reason. It’s wether one sees the full picture or not. I had become tired of looking & needed a break. So, I withdrew. I felt like a “Wounded Warrior”, lol. I simply had to fix & heal myself.
But it was & is always important to me to remember that, LOVE is real & that LIFE is precious. So even though I was sad, I couldn’t give up…I simply don’t know how to. So, this is me before I became ill. Funny, when I look back, I wasn’t happy at all then, I was in the middle of Hell. Now, I look different, but I FEEL good, happy, & whole within my Soul. I even smile & laugh again. Yes, I can honestly say that I’m happy & blessed😃.