✨✍🏾How I’ve Grown – By, Maxwanette A Poetess✍🏾✨

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How I’ve Grown

How I’ve grown.

Momma threw me out when I was 11-the voices in her head told her to.

Daddy was done with me by age 15. If I slept with him? I could’ve stayed.

Now I’m all on my own.

 

My oh my! How I’ve Grown.

 

Homeless…Winter’s coming.

As September’s end blows cold.

A shelter is the focus, food & education is the least of interests.

 

He drove up, trying to talk.

I kept moving, hurrying up my walk.

Then that breeze blew & right then I knew…I had to stop. I looked at him & forced a smile.

 

My oh my! How I’ve Grown.

 

I was 15, he was 34,

Out of the Winter in the streets.

I peed his bed the first time we’d sleep.

 

Planting seeds,

Stunted growth, separating of weeds.

Mistakes made, lessons learned, wounds no longer bleed.

 

My oh my! How I’ve Grown.

 

Beaten down, left for dead.

Ignoring the things that others said,

I lived on…

 

Decision after decision,

Choice after choice,

I learned how to find my own voice.

 

My oh my! How I’ve Grown.

©Maxwanette A Poetess

 

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📚✍🏾”I Cursed Him” ~ By, Maxwanette A Poetess✍🏾📚

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I Cursed Him

The man that helped cause,

the very creation of my birth…

I cursed him, with the remnant breath of his existence.

See, he bragged & began to revel in the dirt,

regarding the beatings that he gave my Mother, that hurt.

I became the verbal reflection of his crude actions.

What I wanted to do, was to place my hands around his neck,

squeezing until he welcomed death, plastering his remorseless smirk,

upon the wall of damned eternity, for the pain, he caused my Mother.

“A-R-R-RAH-H-H!!!”

A child’s flashback, when everything went black,

flooding memories of Mommy’s busted lip,

the pain in her hip from his kicks,

the sighs, as make-up, could no longer cover the eyes,

that were constantly black & blue…

Instead, I gathered my strength,

grabbing hold of my tempers tailspin,

From the depths of my Mother’s womb,

searing from my Ancestors tombs…

I cursed him,

&

for me, he is no more.

I AM FREE.

© Maxwanette A Poetess, All Rights Reserved.

 

*Child Abuse & Domestic Violence (DV) are very damaging experiences. They can follow one through adulthood & their entire life. These are causes that are very personal to me & hold a special spot in my heart. As a society, we must do more. Abused children can very easily become abused & fractured adults, which flows over into a very hellish existence. One of the most important things to remember is that you’re not alone & there are resources available.

“Namastè & One Love” ❤️💛💚

 

National Child Abuse Hotline 1(800)4-A-Child or 1(800)422-4453

https://www.childhelp.org/hotline/

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National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 

http://www.thehotline.org/

Domestic Violence

Child Abuse Can Affect You As An Adult

Don’t Be Ashamed…GET HELP!

Adult Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse GET HELP 24/7: 800.656.HOPE (4673)

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https://www.rainn.org/articles/adult-survivors-child-sexual-abuse

https://aifs.gov.au/cfca/publications/effects-child-abuse-and-neglect-adult-survivors

 

https://www.havoca.org/effects-child-abuse-neglect-adult-survivors/

 

 

📚✍🏾“Force~Ripe”~ By, Maxwanette A Poetess📚✍🏾

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Force-Ripe

Whump-Whump!

It goes dark, as air is constricted.

Flashes of electricity, producing sharp

pains…

A woman, pregnant with child, Absorbs the blows given,

by an abusive husband.

She howls in pain,

As she and her unborn feel the wrath of hatred & ignorance.

The welcoming of this little life,

Viewed as a constant reminder of a heinous mistake, NEVER to be forgotten.

Abused by the very ones, who regrettably gave her life.

Her essence and hymen, torn away

by her Daddy’s tongue…

Passed around the family tree, as they plucked their piece from her body, damaging her

Soul & giving her,

“The Kiss of Death.”

Poor ting,

She never had a chance.

Sweet, innocent, likkle BabyGirl…”Force-riped.”

“Force~Ripe” is a Jamaican label, given to very young girl children, that due to abuse, which is often sexual, have been forced to become adults before their time. It is also used if these young girls are seen or known to adopt adult ways, i.e. Smoking, drinking, dressing in a degrading manner, their mannerisms and or how they speak. It is also used when a child has taken on adult issues and or problems (voluntarily or not), and they have to make adult decisions or choices. It matures the child before normal circumstances would.

The term “Force~Ripe”, isn’t a positive one. It’s almost like a “Kiss of Death.” For the damages often caused due to this, can destroy the child for life or it can strengthen the child. It can be a difficult journey to get through & it does change an individual.

“Namastè & One Love”❤️💛💚

 

© Maxwanette A Poetess, All Rights Reserved.

 

YOU ARE NOT ALONE & PEOPLE CARE

1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. All calls are confidential. 

Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline 

https://www.childhelp.org/hotline 

National Hotlines 

National Domestic Violence Hotline 
Staffed 24 hours a day by trained counselors who can provide crisis assistance and information about shelters, legal advocacy, health care centers, and counseling.  

1-800-799-SAFE (7233) 
1-800-787-3224 (TDD)  

Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network 
The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) is the nation’s largest anti-sexual assault organization.  Among its programs, RAINN created and operates the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1.800.656.HOPE and the National Sexual Assault Online Hotline at rainn.org . This nationwide partnership of more than 1,100 local rape crisis centers provides victims of sexual assault with free, confidential services, 24 hours per day, 7 days per week.  These hotlines have helped over 1.3 million people since RAINN’s founding in 1994.

 

“#9LIVESMATTER”~Maxwanette A Poetess

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#9LivesMatter

I will not leave these young Souls,

to drown in the bottomless Sea of Disaster.

I will stand firm,

As the fight gets harder & harder.

I will rise above the shame, pain, doubts & noise…

I will help to give these 9 Lives a voice.

No longer will we be silent, as we’ve been taught to do.

I will be their support, take their plight to the rafters if I have to.

Threats will not stop me, instead, they will make me stronger.

And always on the forefront, “#9LivesMatter!”

*Inspired by 9 little & young Souls, that refuse to allow hell to consume them.

 

“Namastè & One Love”❤️💛💚

by Maxwanette A. Poetess

National Child Abuse Hotline:

1(800)4-A-Child

or

1(800)422-4453

https://www.childhelp.org/

http://preventchildabuse.org/

http://www.stopitnow.org/

“Now Where You At?”~Maxwanette A Poetess

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 “Now Where You At?” 

You never had my back,

Beat my Momma while she was pregnant, sucka-bitch attacks.

Trying to destroy us both, had no love I see…

Now Where You At?

Living, while you never wanted me to be,

The life you & my mother created…”ME”,

Always tearing me down, abused me verbally, mentally, emotionally, physically, incestuously…

You piece of shit, lol! Now Where You At?

Damaged my heart, mind, body & soul

Half of this story has never been told.

These words you can’t even read,

Because you’re still ignorant, living in the land of illiteracy

Now Where You At?

No more secrets man,

No more lies

Now you’re old – can’t see any more out of those evil eyes…

“Hey, Daddy!

Now Where You At?”

(((MIC DROP))) 

~Maxwanette A. Poetess

 *The pain of child abuse doesn’t just go away. It leaves an imprint on one’s soul. Manifesting and expressing itself in a variety of ways. It causes anger, confusion, lost and torn from the treatment. It teaches one to be a wonderful victim and become a master in self-sabotage. For some, they become abusers themselves. It is a cycle that is not easy and takes much work to break. Abusees, have to learn how to embrace themselves, no matter what they’ve been through and do not see themselves through the eyes & actions of the abuser. The first step is to let that negative garbage out. Release the pain, frustration, judgment, guilt, fear, you name it.  I say, “Feel, deal, heal and keep it moving forward.”  

by Maxwanette A. Poetess

You are not alone and people care.

Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline 

https://www.childhelp.org/hotline 

1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. All calls are confidential. 

National Hotlines 

National Domestic Violence Hotline 
Staffed 24 hours a day by trained counselors who can provide crisis assistance and information about shelters, legal advocacy, health care centers, and counseling.  

1-800-799-SAFE (7233) 
1-800-787-3224 (TDD)  

Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network 
The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) is the nation’s largest anti-sexual assault organization.  Among its programs, RAINN created and operates the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1.800.656.HOPE and the National Sexual Assault Online Hotline at rainn.org . This nationwide partnership of more than 1,100 local rape crisis centers provides victims of sexual assault with free, confidential services, 24 hours per day, 7 days per week.  These hotlines have helped over 1.3 million people since RAINN’s founding in 1994.